Play Kissing During Work Game - Dress Up Doll Games

Play Kissing During Work Game - Dress Up Doll Games

Confusion

I'm going through something...and it's confusing. I'm confused about who I am and what my purpose is in life. What college I should go to. If I should even go to college. I'm trying to resist peer pressure to do all sorts of things that I know I shouldn't do, but some of them I kind of want to do. If you know what I mean? I'm considering getting my nose pierced, and my belly button, and nine other parts of my body. But my parents would totally kill me if I did that...not that I care, so now I'm just thinking about getting a tattoo on my neck. But it wouldn't really be considered my neck, because it would be so high into my hairline, that you wouldn't even be able to see it. Unless I wore my hair in a high enough ponytail. I'm really confused. I keep finding myself in this position. Waiting. Waiting for something to happen. Waiting for this guy to talk to me without me having to initiate the conversation. I've loved this guy since November 7th, 2008 and I still can't have a conversation with him for more than 2 minutes. Unless were on the phone or on Facebook, because then I could talk to him for hours. I thought I was over him, but here I am again, just waiting. Waiting for him to just talk. He's played with my heart for so long. Now I just need a friend. Ha! I can't believe I still get butterflies every time I look at him. He's moved on and I can't. He's went to prom, won a "talent show", and is so close to graduating it makes me cry... And the saddest part is...he's the best thing thats ever happened to me...and he's leaving in 3 months. These next few years are going to be the worst years of my life...And probably the best for him...